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Why Memorize The Bible

I have never understood why I should try to remember the verses of the Bible.  I was always told that you memorize verses in order to fight off the battles of the mind.  I always thought that it was ridiculous.  I was the type of person that could not memorize a single verse other than “Jesus Wept”.  Of course, I couldn’t tell you where it was located in the Bible of why I should remember it.  I thought of it as being stupid and a waste of time.

I have the authority to defeat the enemy and nothing will hurt me.  Luke 10:19

Then, I began trying to remember some verses.  I would write down a verse and glance at it occasionally throughout the week, month, or year.  My glances were simply that, glances.  I would get frustrated because I could not remember them like I could remember other things like phone numbers.  God then revealed it to me in a moment of struggle.  How can I remember something that I take little to no time with.  Phone numbers are only able to be remembered in my head because I use them all the time.  I dial these numbers repeatedly. So, what do I do.

The Lord will deliver me.  Jeremiah 1:19

I began spending time on one verse a month.  I would read it and recite it aloud.  This got me through about 5 verses in the 5 months of practice.  I then failed to continue, as I do many things in my life.  I am one that has a great gung-ho but little follow-through.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  Philippians 4:13

One afternoon, my mind was racing at the stress in my life.  I was freaking out about my marriage, my children, my job, my future.  We had lost our home, our foster children, our dog had been run over, I got fired from my job, my son was cutting, my husband and I were not speaking.  I was laying on the couch wallowing in my pity and self-doubt.  I was a miserable person, a broken-hearted woman with no gumption to move. Then, it happened.  I heard this voice say that I will never amount to anything and that nothing will get better so I should get used to this pain.  This a small whisper said, “faith”.  The whisper was faint and I was in shock that these sounds were going on in my head as there was no one else in the home.  The whisper didn’t stop and I just kept hearing it.

Your words are spirit and life.  John 6:63

Then a memory came to me.  Someone had once said that they had once walked through their home asking for God to bless it and to kick out satan.  This memory was vivid, even though I had actually never seen of such but it played out in my mind.  So, I went to the bathroom and removed the bottle of anointing oil I had received 3 years prior when our daughter was blessed.  I commenced to reciting any verse that came to mind and spritzing that oil and cursing at satan and asking God to take back my home.  I screamed at the top of my lungs and I cried, and fell down on my knees weeping and asking God why I had to hurt like this.  The verses I said, I can’t tell you what they were or where they came from.  All I know, was that God pulled them out of me and He removed satan that day, giving my home a peace that it had lost.

No weapon formed against me shall prosper.  Isaiah 54:17

The healing was not over night but it started.  Each of us experienced it in a different way, but it happened over time.

I am more than a conqueror through Jesus Christ.  Romans 8:37

Now, almost 7 years later, my family is happy and struggling in all new ways.  Of course, I will take these struggles over those any day.  But I know that no matter what comes, God will overcome.  I will recite the verses that He brings to mind and I will praise Him through it all!.

The Lord is on my side, I will not fear.  Psalms 118:6-7

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Just Give Up!

You ever have that thought in your head that tells you to just throw in the towel?  Mine says that it doesn’t matter what I do that I will never be better, I will never change, that I will remain the same as I have always been.  It says that no matter what I do, I am stuck!

Well, I am here to tell you that it is just NOT TRUE!  You are told and misdirected by the words of satan.  He uses things that have been said to you and feeling that you have had in the past to hold you there.  The longer he holds on to you the better his odds are at keeping you and withholding your hope of a better life in the future.  He knows that if he continues to remind you of those words that he will hold the power in his hands and he will grow stronger and will overpower the love and whispers of God.

God loves you and He wants you to be the best you that He has planned.  He wants you to fulfill and achieve all the goals you have set forth in your life.  He gave you those goals, so why would He not give you the ability to hold them in your hand?  Why would He not give you the strength to overcome any battle that satan tries to instigate? Why would God give you His Almighty Hand and not allow you to use it?

goals11In the past week, I have struggled with doubts and fears along with misguided directions so I have had to call on Him numerous times.  And you know what happened?  HE CAME!!!  He not only came and overcame what I was struggling with but He allowed me to go farther than I could have imagined!  I simply call out His Almighty and Powerful name, asking Him to remove this doubt and to kick satan out.  I tell satan that my God is bigger than he could ever be and that He has defeated him before and will defeat him again.

I may look and sound crazy as I am walking down the trail in the park talking aloud, but I DON’T CARE!!  I simply do as God directs me and I know that He will strengthen me and He will accomplish my goals.  I don’t accomplish anything without God’s hand in the midst.  His strength allowed me to reach my goal of walking 4 miles but added almost a full 3 quarters more.  I walked 4.67 miles with the strength to keep going.  I simply made goal to walk 4 miles by the end of the week and that day I reached the goal of 6 miles for the day, just of walking.


So, don’t tell me you “can’t” or you “don’t have time”.  If you really have a goal then you do anything to get there.  You meet goals at work when they are given to you and you reach the deadlines that your boss gives you so why can’t you treat this the same way?  Why not set your goals, set a time frame, and just reach it!

Tell me your goals?  What is something you have always wanted to do?  What is it that you have been longing to do, longing to accomplish, but have lacked the strength to achieve?

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Quiet Much?

There are so many mornings I awake and I just have no idea what I am going to write about.  I don’t know what God has planned for the expression on this page.  So, I wait.  I simply sit in the cool breeze around me listening to the birds and dogs speak to the squirrels and await God’s direction.

Then, BAM!!! Out of nowhere it comes to me.  It can be a song, a verse that read yesterday or this morning, it could be a feeling I had, or it could just be something I see while waiting on Him.

Today, I come with the word; Quiet.  What does quiet mean?  What does it mean to actually experience “the quiet”?  What does your quiet look like when compared to mine?  Are they the same or are that complete opposites? defines it in the verb sense as: verb (used with object) to make quiet, to make tranquil or peaceful; pacify:,to quiet a crying baby, to calm mentally, as a person, to allay (tumult, doubt, fear, etc.), to silence.  These are all the action parts of quiet.  This is how we react or control the quiet.  Does your quiet come close to any of these? also defines it as a adjective as making no noise or sound, especially no disturbing sound:, quiet neighbors, free, or comparatively free, from noise, a quiet street, silent, Be quiet!, restrained in speech, manner, etc.; saying little, a quiet person.,free from disturbance or tumult; tranquil; peaceful:,a quiet life, being at rest, refraining or free from activity, especially busy or vigorous activity, a quiet Sunday afternoon.  This sounds more like what I want to speak on today.

How much do we say the word quiet?  Are we telling ourselves to quiet the noise in our heads or telling the children or family to quiet the noises going on around us?  Do we ever actually GET QUIET?  Do we ever allow our minds to rest?  Do we allow our bodies to enjoy the quiet?  Or are we just starting the next thing and the next thing, and so on?  Are we getting hooked on things that are unholy or ungodly to the life we strive to live?  Are we spending more time playing the games on our phones and watching the television shows we shouldn’t be watching than we simply stop and listen to God in the quiet?  Are we even trying?

I challenge you to walk away from the television, turn off the games and computers, close the door to the light of technology and noise that clutters your mind.Just be still and quiet and listen.  Listen for Christ.  Listen for the Word of God to reign down from heaven and provide you with love, encouragement, and direction for your life.  Give Him the quiet time that He so rightly deserves.

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Are We Thanking Him

I was reading my morning devotional today and the topic got me thinking and wondering.  Am I truly grateful for what Christ has given me? Am I actually content? Or am I simply saying that I am so that He will bless me further? Is there motive behind what I say?  Or am I actually content?

So, it got me thinking about my prayer life. How am I praying? Am I just going through the same old motions and words each evening or am I speaking from my heart?  Am I being thankful with hopes that my thankfulness reflects goodness and will then bless me with kire? Do I want more?

Well, I do want more. I think that if we do not want more than we have no goals. If we have jo goals then we tend to lose purpose. I am not saying that I want a mansion on a hill with horses and servants. I simply want more time with my family. I want the ability to lend a financial hand whenever it is necessary to those in need around us. I want a home that I own not borrow from someone else. I want to live a healthy life so I may grow old with my children and know my great grandchildren. I want to send my children to college without a student loan or incurr any debt because of it.  I want to rock beside my husband until we are so old and grey that our love is all that holds us together. I want to do God’s will and work with the financial abilities that He provides. So, I don’t think wanting things is bad. I just think the way the world runs after things is what hurts us.

Take a business man on Wall Street. The typical one is going after that next big thing that is gonna make him the most money. What about these  people that say they can show you how to be rich like them in 3 easy steps, just send then $500.  Then there are the pyramid schemes that promise an easy way to make money. None of this is easy as God directed, we must work for everything. We must have some pain to be able to rejoice in what He has provided you with.

So, I am grateful that God gives my family the ability to remain focused on our goals and allows us to enjoy our lives together. So, I am truly content with what I have and if we do not reach the goals we want, I will remain happy in Christ and content with my blessings.

Are you content?

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Bring It Out

I just listened to a Pastorial Sermon and it moved me so much that I felt like sharing.  I know that each of us have had moments of weaknesses and we have fell short of the Glory Of God.  We have made mistakes that have spent time hauting us and tormenting our mind.  These moments have brought fear and anger along with anger and distrust.  We have fallen and chose to stay down for a time in order to avoid the fighting to get back up.

That is exactly what satan wants us to do, think, and feel.  Satan wants us to think that we are not worth anything and we are better off to continue on the path of death instead of fighting to overcome the bad deed or deeds we have acted out.  He wants us to feel unloved, unwanted, and worthless.


Jesus wants us to come to Him.  He wants us to simply shine a light on the act(s) of evil we have committed.  He wants us to tell those that the act was committed against.  He wants us to be open and honest to those around us that we may have caused any pain or anguish against.  He wants us to walk with a bright light over us to shut out the darkness of evil.

Arise, shine; for your light has come, And the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. Isaiah 60:1

The Lord wants you to feel loved and desirable to Him.  He wants you to feel worth His love and know that you have it always!  He wants you to relish in Him.

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in [b]any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For just as the sufferings of Christ are [c]ours in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ. But if we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; or if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which is effective in the patient enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer; and our hope for you is firmly grounded, knowing that as you are sharers of our sufferings, so also you are sharers of our comfort.  II Corinthians 1:3-7

Show others how you can get through this pain and hurt.  Be able to use your suffrage and help others grow in their pain.  Teach others to come out of the dark and let God shine His light on their lives as they have yours.

I write this from a point of view of being deep within this situation.  I have lied to others regarding my activities and I have hidden the things I did against others from seeing the light of Christ.  I kept them in a box and hid them in order to protect myself, unknowingly hurting myself in the process.  I hurt others by continuing to lie and hide my mistakes from others.  I deceived so many that I felt isolated from the ones that loved me the most.  That was exactly what satan wanted.

Once I confessed it to the ones that I held dear to me, it freed me.  I felt that God was holding my hand to each person I spoke with and each one held me, prayed with me, and forgave me.  They were happy that I had come to them with this information and I knew that they still had love for me.  They truly valued me.

Satan has nothing to hold over me any longer.  I can walk with freedom because I know that Christ is leading me and holding me up to His workmanship.  He protects me and loves me, even when I fall.


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They Know

There are so many times in my life as a parent that I have wondered; “Do they even hear me?  Are they even paying attention?”  That question has bothered me for many moons.  I have prayed that God would protect them from my illegitimate ways and my screw-ups in life, that He would shine through those events in my life and make them fade away so that my children would see the good things and see what God wants them to be.

That answer came today.

All my life I have prayed and strived to be a Proverbs Wife, you know Chapter 31, where it speaks of the woman going out early and giving of herself so that her family can be well-provided for.  The one that speaks of the late hours she gives up of sleep so that all is ready for the the next day.  I have prayed that I could be even one-fifth of that woman, that I would at least show God’s love to my family through my actions and through the tiresome work I perform for them.  I wanted to make sure they always knew that they were the reason I did the things I did and they were my motivation for continuing on the long trail I was on.  I prayed for God to show them His love through my provisions that He was there and He was the strength that I needed in all the times of control.

God answered another prayer for me.

I received a late Mother’s Day gift from my eldest child, my first born, my reason for living most of my 20’s, my baby boy.  He sent me something so simple, so easy to come by that at first glance someone would ask why it would tear me up so.  then, open the soft covered red journal that reads, ” Life is Wonderfull and beautifull”.  He begins by telling me he loves me, same mushy stuff that all moms want to hear and their children KNOW it.  Then it goes on to say that he has seen the woman I am and the life I knew and how much I had become something greater than that life of cruel times and cruel moments of pain and hurt brought on by so many in my life.  He continued by telling me that he knew he had not been an easy child to rear (HA, his sister is harder) and that he was so happy his father and I never gave up on him, even at it’s worst.  Then, oh yeah, then he hits me.  Tears are rolling down my face and then he simply writes: You are the woman they speak of in Proverbs 31:10-31.  I fall!!!

This young man of 20 (almost 21) tells his mother that she is exactly as she has prayed and strives to become.  She is exactly what God has made her to be.  She is exactly the woman that all women want to become.

How do I stand up?  How can I be that woman?  How can I, simple me, that came from alcoholic father, abandonment issues, sexual relations with those outside of my marriage, mental abuse, neglect, and so many more things; how can I be a Proverbs Woman?  How can I be a wife for anyone to look up to?  How can I be a mother that anyone would ask a parenting question from?  Who am I?


So, thank you son!  Thank you for seeing me and TELLING me.  Because I am my own worst enemy.

Bless each of you.

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Answered Prayers

How many times do we pray for that one person or that one event or just that one thing to happen?  When do we finally just stop worrying and give it to Christ?  When do we let God take the wheel and actually simply ride?


I have been praying that a family member actually attends church and stop using excuses to avoid it.  I prayed that they would hear the call of God and act upon it.  I have asked God to give me the ability to simply allow Him the control that He already had and to just face the choices made by this person.  The rest that

The rest that came over me was amazing once I allowed Him into the situation.  Once I allowed Him the control and cut my ropes to the choices made and faced the fact that it was not up to me to decide for them, I truly had rest.  I truly became relaxed and able to face the fact that they had to choose.

So, give it to God and just allow His hands the control of the clay that He may mold it into what He designed.  He has the plan made and will do as He chooses.

For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

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Get Over It

How many times have we used the excuse, “that is not the way I was raised”, or  “that’s not how my parents did it”, even “I learned from my parents”?  How long do you think you can use that group of excuses?  How long can we live in the past, thinking we can make it to the future?

I grew up in a home with an alcoholic father that mentally abused his women and in turn they would mentally abuse me.  I grew up with the thought that I would never be worth anything.  I would and could never amount to much more than the trash I was.  The words resounding in my ears, “you are so stupid, you are fat, you are so ugly”.  These words remained n my heart for many years until God shined a light on my life.

I played the game of bouncing from man to man, getting married just to hold him down; which proved to not have much of a hold.  We filed for divorce less than a year into our wedded bliss with our two-year-old son.  But, Christ turned him back around.  We decided to try again, but we split a couple more times after that always coming back to the feeling of one another’s touch.

After several years of hurting one another and not setting a good example of how a home should operate, God gave us a church family.  This family shined His light on us and showed us how marriage should really be and what the home life should look like.  We learned more about one another and discovered that we grew up in virtually the same household types and had no idea of what a true-love home should look like. Through the Bible Studies and Teachings of other examples of a Christian home, we learned to reflect our love more honestly and to be true to ourselves and God.

We are about to celebrate 20 years of marriage and are more in love today than we were when we said “I do”.  Our unfaithfulness, fighting, and pain has brought us closer together and deeper in love than we could have ever imagined.  We are the ones in our families that will defeat the odds and the divorce demon that lingers over our families.  We are the ones that will fight against the pattern of divorce that follows our family lines.  The buck stops here!

We are showing our children that you can fight and you can have disagreements and still be in love and you can still come back to one another after a hateful sword has flown off your tongue and apologize and offer restitution for such.

So, don’t use the excuse that it was how you were taught.  If you have moved out of your childhood home and you are living on your own then grow up!  Become your own person and take responsibility for your actions, even the failures.  Fight for God’s plan.  Fight against the worldly ways!  I know you can win!

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What’s next?  Where do I go from here?  Where do I get my inspiration?

I bow my head and cover my face in prayer.  I simply ask God to reveal.  Reveal His plan for me, for my next step.  My hands raise in worship as His words fill my heart with the sound of tenderness and guidance.  His love fills my soul with warmth and strength to overcome the next step.  I see myself in my mind and I feel confident about what I am doing.  I feel empowered and able to take on whatever may come next.  I feel strengthened by His touch, not a physical touch but an overwhelming warmth that fills me with love.

My eyes open, or so I think they do, and I see it.  I see the power He is pouring into me.  I can actually see myself on my knees with Christ over me and pouring from His cup a liquid, a solid, or a gas; I don’t know what it is but it glows and I know that it must be the fuel for my soul.  It must be what I have been blessed with by Him to overcome this next battle.  For I know there is a battle to come, I feel the presence of Him the greatest when there is one ahead.  His power is all I can feel when the battle is at hand.  His ability and courage takes over my weakness and fear.  His love overcomes all the hurt I feel.

As I remove my hands from my eyes and stand to my feet, I hear Him say, “Go”.  I simply walk on and know that He has directed and prepared me to take on this next giant.  I know that I am capable, empowered, loved, strengthened,  ready, and will overcome this next battle.  I know that whatever may come my way, Christ is right there and He gives me all the strength that is necessary to stand against that evil giant.

I am beginning new things in my life regularly.  I know that this is God’s plan for me.  As I set forth on a journey to greater health, strengthened marriage, and healthier lifestyle within a sense of fulfilled accomplishments that He is surrounding me with His abilities that are much more greater than mine.

Don’t give up.  Give in and pray.  Get on your knees and simply ask.  Ask God for strength and the ability to overcome and He will provide!

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Day 5 Daniel Plan Journey


How have the last 4 days been for you?  Are taking them slowly and at your own pace?  If not, DO NOT RUSH IT!!  We did not get where we are overnight!  We did not gain the weight or lose the healthy lifestyle overnight.  It was gradual.  So, the change must be gradual as well.   Take it daily and pray.  Pray from morning until night.  Pray about everything and think it through.  Give God time to respond to what you say and ask.  Listen for HIM!

Day 5

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Daniel Plan Devotion Day 5

New Taste: Smoothie-2 c. unsweetened almond milk, 2 tablespoons flax seeds, 1 scoop protein powder, 1 c. spinach, 1/2 c. frozen berries, 1/2 c. crushed ice.

Send me your responses to the flavor of your smoothie.  Show me that taste!chubby guy working out sexy

“Turn BAD days into GOOD Data!”

Workout: Take a 20-30 minute walk. While watching tv or at work, raise hands high above the hand (Thank God for His blessings), Lower them while you breathe in.  Place your hand in a locking grip behind you, stretch them up while bending down release all your worries to Christ and allow him to take them from you. Repeat 5 times or more!

Journal: write down any thoughts that may be discouraging to you and pray over them.  Think about the things that you HAVE accomplished in the last few days, and write them down.  No matter how big or small, be happy about the change.  Be happy about the small steps so that you can be OVERJOYOUS about the BIG steps.  Enjoy your time within your walks.  Play some Christian music, motivational speakers, or podcasts of church services.  Anything with positive words and things that FILL you.