Open Up!

Are you open?  Do you allow others to see the real you?  Are you a different person behind closed doors?  Or, are you the same person all day and all night?

I was once a hidden person.  I would behave one way in front of some and another way in front of others.  It became a burden and a confusion for me.  I began to feel like I had to please certain people with my behavior, beliefs, and actions.  This caused me to mess up even further.

One day, I felt this rush of pain come over me.  I couldn’t stop crying.  I was just hurting and had no idea why.  It wasn’t a physical pain, like something stabbing me or anything of the sort.  I saw no blood, nothing.  I only felt hurt.  I could not seem to get a strong breath and was laying


the floor in a fetal position, crying.  I simply cried.  I lay like this for several moments, unsure exactly how long, but just cried.  I cried until I felt there was no more reason to cry.  When my tears began to dry, I heard a voice, “Get up, be you. Be honest with you and all that you touch.”  I can only think that those words came from God.  He could no longer stand to see my soul in such turmoil.

I agreed with him.

I can’t say that it was easy because it wasn’t.  I began to “clean house”.  I began truly digging

in to

the Bible and I started cutting out the friends that I was someone that wasn’t really me.  I opened up to those that I lied to and explained why I felt the lies were all I could do to keep from losing them or admitting that I had been wrong.  Once again, tears.  these tears never hurt as painfully as the previous ones explained.  They were healing tears.

I began to feel stronger and more independent.  I began the wife my husband deserved and the mother my children desired.  I began to be the Christian that God calls us to be.

I was reading a devotion today in “My Utmost For His Highest”.  It brought this moment to mind.  The moment that made me proud of who I was for the first time in my life.  Transformed by Beholding gave me the direction my life needed back then.  I remember thinking these things and not know why, but now I do.  God calls us to shine a light on our lives, ALL of our lives, not just the parts we want Him to see and like.  He wants us to share EVERYTHING with Him.  We are to concentrate on keeping our lives open and to hide nothing.

II Corinthians 3:18 
We all, with unveiled faces, beholding as a mirror of glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image.

Isn’t that an amazing thought and something that we should all be striving for?  We should all look in the mirror and be able to smile.  If we are standing in the mirror and we know that we are keeping something hidden from God that should be brought into the light, allow Him to pull it out.  Give the pain, the hurt, the loss, the mess to God.  He will heal it and allow you to become your full potential.  We must maintain a position of beholding Him and keeping our lives completely spiritual through and through.  Never allow anything to obscure the life that is God’s.

This brings me to another point: devotion, Devotion Time is an important time that we, as Christians, must spend with God on a daily time frame.  We must spend time praying, worshipping, and reading His words everyday.  If we avoid this time or we allow things to happen that take us away from those time, we will pay for it and this will allow satan to overtake.

This time allows us to be open to Him as much as we need to be open to others about Him.  A Christian must exhibit completely unveiled openness before God, which will allow the life to become a mirror to others.  We are transformed when the Hol Spirit is in control.  Your inner spirit senses that the mirror of the Lord’s character wants to shine.  Allow God’s life to be mirrored in yours.

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